You Say Goodbye, I Say Hello

My first blog-post...well, these are always fun. *sarcasm* The truth is it's been since February that I've blogged and since May that I've written a journal entry. As a writer, that's a tough road to handle. Writing has always been my way of expressing my thoughts, getting rid of my negative vibes and sorting everything out on paper so it becomes less confusing. It gives a sense of stability and control to my little universe. My only problem is I'm out of practice, so I hope this isn't too scattered.

A lot has been going on in my life since I stopped writing--a lot of it I wish I would have recorded before it slipped away into the black oblivion of the forgotten past. It's a lot of things I wish I could remember so when it comes to raising kids, giving counsel, or not repeating mistakes, I would have an Omer of Manna (so to speak) to always remember the goodness of Christ. But since I can't change that aspect of the past, I'll just take this opportunity to start afresh.

The purpose of this blog? Good question. I try not to vomit too much of my personal life for all of the web-world to see, but I'm probably going to open up a lot more here than I have at any other blog or time in my life. As a forewarning, it might get as ugly as my sin nature, especially those days I'm in such horrendous emotional pain I feel the need to hide the ugly wounds behind a paper-faced smile. I've decided to expose myself for who I truly am--whether at my spiritual strongest or most sinfully vulnerable. Yeah, it might get dark and hideous but it's reality and that's really all that is mattering to me at this point.

When I start writing, I don't stop until I feel a release. Therefore, my posts will vary in length--it might be a sentence or two, or a page or two. I don't know, I'll let my fingers guide me.

I'll post when I'm happy, sad, contemplative...as often as I can.

If I get some stunning Revelation or just a crazy thought, I'll probably blog that too.

And I guess I don't have to sit down and write out another "About me", just look to the right. :)

So yeah, I guess the purpose of this blog is to keep an open journal (anything too personal, I'll just write out on paper for me and God). If it may appear that I'm going through a hard time or am under unnecessary mental stress, then please feel free to lift me up in prayer. I truly believe it has power and can move mountains so you have my permission to take my case before our Heavenly Father.

Adios for now. (:
~Rose