Ladies and Gentleman, Matthew and I are getting married Wednesday, December 12, 2012!!!!! YAY!!!!
The wedding planning has just begun even though I have less than four months to get everything together. Luckily, the doors of favor have opened up and people have been offering to help us with their time, talents, and finances. For example, food is being covered, decor is being covered and my maid-of-honor has not stopped using her creativity to help put things in order with the bridesmaids and showers and so much more. It's....
Wait. STOP!!!
I have to take a moment and say I can't believe I am FINALLY writing this out. Me. I'm getting married. It's official and it still hasn't set in yet that it's finally happening...to MMEEEEE!It's me, on this end, blogging about plans. It's me, on this side of the white fence, wearing the wedding dress.
It feels like just yesterday I was dreaming about marriage, in tears because of the ache in my heart; I felt such a deep connection to my future husband between the ages of 19 and 20, it was a literal pain. I felt like I already knew him. In that place of agony and wondering, I wrote him over 70 letters. I can remember right around the time I met Matthew for the first time at church (and hated him, lol) is when the feelings of my future husband being close by intensified (I just never put the two together...I didn't WANT to marry him at first, lol).
To get personal and side-tracked for a moment, I remember writing in one of the letters, "You feel so close at times it's unbearable and unfair. I just want to know who you are, to begin our lives together. It's almost like you're in the same room as me, almost as if I could reach out and touch your cheek. You are so much already a part of my heart. Where are you? I know meeting you is so close...where are you?"
I cringe remembering those painful days. I can hardly fathom that they are finally over...It's here...it's finally here...the waiting is over...and the best is yet to come and is here!!!! I know who he is and now I'm marrying him!
I'm getting married. Oh.My.Gosh!
Pardon my giddiness and ramblings, but I've waited my whole life for this day, gone through so much pain to get to this day, finally able to say I'm getting married on blog spot...to family members...beside the one I love...proud to show him off......I'm getting married...I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!
I just feel like an adult but overwhelmed with the joy of a child all at the same time!!!
Okay, I'm done. Back to planning.
I'm so grateful that God has put me through so many trials and tribulations in learning how to trust Him, more so this past year.
Long story short, my parents chose not to finance ANYTHING for our wedding for one stupid reason or another--meaningless reasons that still hurt to go into detail over. But God opens the doors He wants to open, and isn't limited to just a select few people to move through and DEFINITELY not limited to tradition. My life is living proof He can move on the hearts of anyone!
He gave me a promise a few months back; I heard him speak so tenderly to my heart when I was stressing out that, "Your Father, who loves you so much, Rose, wants to give you the wedding of your dreams...HE wants to pay for it. It's a representation of His love for His Bride...and he's going to make that representation worthwhile!"
That released me from my financial burdens and it's been easier since then.
Mind you, I still get a little frazzled at times and it is a fight to trust God, but because it's easier to go to Him more often then I used to concerning finances and such, I am able to relax and enjoy this planning stage without getting overly-freaked out thinking about expenses. Not to mention I have never seen so many people who truly love Matthew and I and want the best for us, jump to our sides and support us. I am overwhelmed by the amount of love and help we have been receiving from family, church family and friends. It's the ultimate miracle taking place now in my life.
Almost everything is getting paid for or paid off. I mean, we still have a lot of unexpected costs popping up; our bank account is a little low as we strive to get an apartment situated for us that nearly doubles the rent we are paying for me now, but it's just a chance to trust God deeper and watch Him work everything out so beautifully just in time.
I truly am feeling peace inside and all fuzzy with gratefulness and the fast approaching day, just as a blushing bride should!
Anyway, this is an insanely wonderful time, so I am going to TRY to blog as often as possible to record every memory made, every grounded thought, every revelation I get during this first and last wedding-planning adventure of my life.
So, I will do my best to post everything, ESPECIALLY tomorrow when I go to pick out bridesmaid dresses with my girls (and one guy!....like I said, my wedding is a far cry from traditional even though it is inspired vintage. ;) And he's not wearing a dress, in case you were wondering lol. )
So thank you all who are reading this and I hope you enjoy the adventurous time ahead; I know I am going to. ;)
1 comments:
"My parents chose not to finance ANYTHING for our wedding for one stupid reason or another--meaningless reasons..." I can't believe you would put this online for others to see. They may have been stupid and meaningless to you, but to us they weren't. You lied to and deceived us multiple times, you had just gotten through wasting hundreds of dollars of our money that we had given you for school in good faith, you didn't accomplish anything you said you would in that area, then you came home and demanded, in a rude and inconsiderate way, that we foot the bill for your wedding. You didn't have a job at the time, Matt had no job, and you had no wedding date. And we were still reeling from the unfortunate fact that you had just left school and moved back here without telling us, while we were still paying your bills. Why would we throw more money at a situation like that? But in all fairness you should let your blogging friends know that we did pay for your honeymoon, which cost well over one thousand dollars. I don't think it is fair of you to engage in character assasination of your parents, who have truly cared for you and loved you throughout your whole life. At the very least, we should be able to state the WHOLE truth. You can't always believe everything you read online. ~mama1
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